Monday, September 28, 2009

going away party

It was fantastic. There were some people that I wish would have came but it was a pretty good turnout. I didn't cry, ok maybe a little when Cassy was leaving, she told me it's time to do things for me and that I need to focus on myself and she's tired of seeing me not living for myself. Or something along those lines. I was quite intoxicated, but at the good point where I was happy and content with not drinking anymore. Malibu is always my friend. I am really going to miss everyone so much. I didn't really always hang out with people but still, they are not going to be accessible to call anytime i feel like and just invite out to dinner or go to the movies with.

One week from today is my interview with Disneyland, which I feel strangely confident about. I continue to read up as much as I can about other people's experiences and talked to my new future roomie who already was hired about it. She says it's a breeze.

Friday, September 25, 2009

I realized that I end up ranting like Adam Carolla, it's like, some things you shouldn't bring up in front of me because I have an opinion about it and I will tell you all about it even if you don't want to hear about it. And I have theories on things that aren't like crazy amazing theories of great intelligence but they matter to me.

Adam Carolla you are my hero :)


Don't normally remember my dreams, but I woke up this morning with a chill in my spine. I was talking to my dad on my cell phone as I was driving as he was dying and I was in Grass Valley. I couldn't figure out where he was and why I wasn't able to get to him but I was frantically driving to get to him but I had no idea where he was. He was just telling me he loves me and he's proud of me and he wouldn't tell me what was wrong and why he was dying and it was like he was on autopilot and couldn't hear me crying or asking questions or anything.

Stupid dreams. Didn't like it one bit.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


I'm leaving, it's happening.

I have an interview with freaking DISNEYLAND! October 5th @ 9am

But I can't help but listen to everyone that keeps telling me to stay. It's making it so hard. I want to go, I need to go... But I'm extremely scared of all of this at the same time.

I can't stop now, the ball is too far in motion.

Monday, September 21, 2009

A dream come true....??

Yesterday I had all sorts of issues I felt naked because I left my cellular at home and went to Shann & Mike's so Shann could touch up my hair so I was just really uneasy not having my phone. Once I got home I had a couple of messages but nothing too important. I got online to check my email and to post up some pictures.....Guess who got an email to set up an interview with Disneyland?!

Ya, that's me :)


Could this really be happening?

Friday, September 18, 2009

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

worst question ever

'what's on your mind? '