boo!

unless i stay at home and cook this shit up and also get paid on time, this isn't going to work... fuck this, i'm becoming anorexic.

and fuck the stupid guys in the shop because they fucked up i probably won't be getting paid this week anymore. they dropped a slab and it broke into a million pieces and now we can't install so that means no payment on that job and guess what ... we can't get that material until it comes from Israel in the middle of august to be able to complete


fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

today...

ugh... wasn't the greatest diet day. i couldn't get up this morning so i decided to sleep in. i didn't get to work till after 10... so when i get my paycheck it will suck but i don't care right now, it felt so good to sleep in.

back to the grind tomorrow, stupid weekend really threw me off

and then i didn't do anything after work like i planned... well i kinda did some laundry but i just getting back into the groove of stupid depression of doing nothing and i'm staying up too late and not getting up for work in the morning. it's like i don't even hear my alarm until 550 and that just screws everything.

i just need to get out of this funk...wow. this sucks.